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Insomnia. It sounds odd, does it not? The meaning of this word, gor those who don't know or understand. It means endless nights of fear and night terrors, sleep deprivation, not waking up because you never slept, night on end, days last so long but nights they are longer. You wish for day to end, well so do I, but I wish for the night to never stay. Sleep, sleep, sleep. I need to sleep. Tick, tok, tick, tok. Drip, drip, drip. Tap, tap tap. Boom, boom, boom. Bark, howl, grrr, buzzzzzzzz. You hear everything. You ate uncomfortable no matter what. You are afraid to sleep but just as scared to be awake. I need you to find me and help me please. J

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Mummy always said I am a beautiful girl. and how, if I believe in myself, I can do anything I want to. and how one day, she promises, all my troubles will disappear. I will meet a man, get married, buy a house, have children of my own as I rise and succeed in my career. What she didn't tell me, is actually, how cruel a man can be. How hard it is to stay successful. How difficult it is to buy a house. She didn't tell me the chances of me not having children either. Mummy always tells me I am a beautiful woman. and how, if I believe myself, I can over come the poisonous addiction. and how one day, all my troubles will go away. One day,